Updates!

Okay. I'm back again. Somebody is complaining that i don't blog often enough. Very kanasai. Never write blog also must get scolding.

I see that he's a good friend by accompanying me when i'm down and lending his shoulder when i cry then i write now so he can read. Song bo? Haha..

Man.. I think i really too long never write blog until now i'm using all sorts of language. This has to stop. I must go back to my perfect English writing.

Hmmmm.. What shall i blog about? All i have to say are sad things. People who know me know what kind of mum i have right?

Just yesterday, she told me to get out of the house again which is really heart breaking. I can tolerate anybody outside whom i don't care about.

They can scold me, say things about me or even laugh at me but when people i care say nasty things to me, it is really hurting.

Sometimes i don't know if i hate my mum more than i love her. How much more of her nonsense can i tolerate for the love i have for her?

I was at the rate of bursting out in tears when i called my dad. I can tell that he too has received certain amounts of stress from my mum because he actually cried over the phone which totally broke my heart.

I sense that my dad is facing some problems on his side but he refuse to tell me what is going on. He said i can't help him as well.

I know he doesn't want me to worry but doesn't he know that by not telling me anything will make me worry more?

I really feel so useless. I can't do anything right. I feel really lost. What am i suppose to do now? What can i do? I'm really too tired with all the things that is going on around me.

I'm frustrated enough that i can't find a full time job. Why is my mum giving us so much shit? I really don't understand. Does she hate us so much?

I don't wanna think so much anymore. I had enough. If moving out is what she wants me to do and if it makes her happier then i will move out the moment i find a job.

In fact, i have an interview tomorrow morning. I seriously hope i can get that job and out of the house i leave. Wish me luck!

I'm back!

Hi all! It's been a long time since i blogged. It's not that i don't care about this blog anymore. I've been giving myself lots of excuses that i don't have time to blog.

In fact, i've been going out a lot with lots of newfound friends. Life has been good for me even though i have already left my ex company.

Well now.. Where do i start? I really have no idea what to say. A lot has happened within this 3 months. Some good some bad.

Alright. I'm now wasting my life away working part time in a pub for the time being while looking for another full time day job.

It ain't that bad actually. Working there has let me improve my drinking skills and make many friends. They are all really fun and my boss is good to me too but i know i can't stay there for long. It's not exactly a proper career.

Been single for a long time though there are now people going after me but i did not take a step further other than just being friends.

Maybe i have fear of being hurt again or i really don't know what it is like to fall in love anymore. I do not feel love at all. I'm just numb to it.

What's important is that i know i will always have a bunch of good friends around me no matter what happens and i can always depend on them.

Sighz.. Ok la. Nothing much to say for the time being. I shall update real soon again. Cya guys!

Still so busy...

Exams are over but i still don't have much time to blog.

I'm always near dead when i'm home everyday. Just so freaking tired.

Nothing happening except that i'm waiting for my results to be out.

Apart from that, i'm actually counting down the days when my birthday comes.

Will anyone even remember it? All i know is that i will be working on that day.

I don't even know how i will celebrate it. No mood to celebrate at all.

What's so nice to celebrate when you are getting older?

I'm pretty much dreading the day coming actually. I'll be officially in my late twenties then.

No more mid twenties le. Boohoohoo...

Sighz.. Counting down to 9 more days when i become an old woman.

Baaahhhhhhh... I don't want la!!! Somebody help me please!!!

Lucky or Unlucky?

Thursday was probably the most fearful day i had.

I dropped my handphone on the cab and it was that brand new handphone that i bought for less than a month.

It was upon reaching office that i realised it. I panicked and started calling my phone like a mad woman, tears nearly bursting out of my eyes.

I was damn lucky that the auntie driver picked up my call before i went bonkers.

She came back and return me my phone while i paid her $10 for travelling back. What's $10 compared to my new phone right?

Recently i never blog because i'm currently addicted to facebook's texas poker. Damn addictive game. Can't stop.

But i know i have to stop somehow. Exams are round the corner and i really gotta start studying. Can't afford to fail.

Work has been a whole lot of stress. Additional workload but no additional income.

Life sucks but what to do. That's life.. Bear with it. Find a rich husband and marry off. Lol.. Just joking.

Recently i've been wondering if SMRT is being stupid or Singaporeans are just pure asses.

They have to employ an old man wearing a t-shirt that says "Please Give Way." standing there every morning to remind the public.

We, Singaporeans are absolute numbskulls. Really have no idea what goes in this people's head. Is it so difficult to give way?

I know life is short, therefore must walk faster but not giving up seats to those who need it more than us are just pure dumb.

I know.. I'm a Singaporean too and a pure one at that too (some say i look like m'sian. what rubbish is that?) but i ain't such an arse. I know who are the needy ones.

For those inconsiderate people, i hope the same thing happens to you. May the fleas of a thousand camels infest your crotch and may your arms be too short to scratch.

Old Dogs!!!

One day the old German Shepherd starts chasing rabbits and before long,discovers that he's lost. Wandering about, he notices a leopard heading rapidly in his direction with the intention of having lunch.

The old German Shepherd thinks, 'Oh, oh! I'm in deep doo-doo now!' Noticing some bones on the ground close by, he immediately settles down to chew on the bones with his back to the approaching cat. Just as the leopard is about to leap, the old German Shepherd exclaims loudly, 'Boy, that was one delicious leopard! I wonder, if there are any more around here?'

Hearing this, the young leopard halts his attack in mid-strike, a look of terror comes over him and he slinks away into the trees.. 'Whew!' says the leopard, 'That was close! That old German Shepherd nearly had me!'

Meanwhile, a monkey who had been watching the whole scene from a nearby tree, figures he can put this knowledge to good use and trade it for protection from the leopard. So, off he goes, but the old German Shepherd sees him heading after the leopard with great speed, and figures that something must be up.

The monkey soon catches up with the leopard, spills the beans and strikes a deal for himself with the leopard.

The young leopard is furious at being made a fool of and says, 'Here, monkey, hop on my back and see what's going to happen to that conniving canine!

Now, the old German Shepherd sees the leopard coming with the monkey on his back and thinks, 'What am I going to do now?', but instead of running, the dog sits down with his back to his attackers, pretending he hasn't seen them yet, and just when they get close enough to hear, the old German Shepherd says...'Where's that damn monkey? I sent him off an hour ago to bring me another leopard!


Moral of this story...

Don't mess with the old dogs..... age and skill will always overcome youth and treachery! BS and brilliance only come with age and experience..

My everything... (For that special someone who has left me)

The lonliness of nights alone
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
N all the things i couldn't see are now so clear to me
You are my everything
Nothing your heart won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything
Now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
A kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know
You all my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
the only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray,
On bended knee
That you will always be,
My everything
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free,
And you have made my soul complete
For all time (for all time)
You are my everything (Your my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (Your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be,
My everything
Your my everything (Your my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (Your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray, down on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything, oh my everything

Testing..

Testing testing.. Testing 123..

Trying to blog from my new phone. Seems not bad wor.

Here's a pretty photo of me for all to enjoy.

Just a dream..

Last night i had a dream about you. In my dreams, we were so happy and so loving.

In my dreams, we were back to when we 1st met each other. Everything was so new and exciting.

In my dreams, we went back to East Coast Park where we spent a lovely and touching night.

The feelings we had for each other were so real and heart warming. You were always there for me.

You are always so gentle and caring towards me. You never left me when i needed you. Always fixing my broken heart.

You never once let go of my hand no matter how tough things were. You told me that you will always be here for me.

When i'm unhappy, you do your best to make me laugh. When i couldn't control and cry, you hug me tight in your arms.

Always giving me the assurance i need. Everytime we are together, you always put a smile on my face.

You created happy memories of us so i can forget about the past. You help me out during my darkest moments.

I truly believe that you were brought to me by our beloved God. An angel from the heaven to give the happiness i deserve.

I was so happy and contented when i was brought back to reality by my alarm clock. It was afterall just a dream.

You have left me behind.

Once again, the wound in my heart opened up. How do i let you know how much i miss you? How do i tell you what i went through just to get over you?

I tell myself to be contented that i once had such happy moments with you. I can only keep it in my heart where it is safe and replay it in my dreams where no one can ever take it away.

Thank you so much for once being with me giving me such happy memories.

Sibei Funny!!!

Got this from a friend's blog. Too funny not to share... =)



P.s: Think he dance better than Wonder Girls though.. =p

I'm still alive...

Dear friends, i'm not dead. I'm still alive la. Just that i've been too preoccupied to blog. So many things to do yet so little time.

Work has been frustrating especially when you are working with lazy, selfish, attitude problem people. Just cannot get peace of mind.

Many times i'm tempted to leave but i know i must carry on. Life doesn't just stop here. I will continue to meet many difficulties and i know i must overcome them so i can grow stronger.

Studies has been really tedious as well. Every 5 lessons there will be a quiz and the percentage you get in the quiz goes to your final exam as well.

Super stress ar!!!

Don't know how i even managed till now. The only consolation i get is getting attending RCIA and Church mass.

It's the only thing i do without feeling tired. Instead i feel stronger and more energetic. Drawing strength from God is indeed different.

I only wish i had more time to blog. It's been a long time since i poured out my feelings here. I miss blogging but i just can't find time.

Whatever free time i have i will use it to revise because the schedule is just too damn tight.

Maybe i will have more free time after my exams which is in July. I hope i pass though. This cert is important to me. Gotta pray hard and study hard.

Alot has been happening recently but now is not the time to spill it out here because i gotta go study le. Upcoming quiz next thurs.

I only have 1 whole saturday to study as sunday will be meeting my classmates to discuss about our roleplay project as it will add on to our final exam as well.

Sighz... Tired and stress. All the best to me then. Bye guys..

I will be strong...

Life has dealt me with many severe blows but yet, life goes on.

Yes. I do cry and feel weak but i know i have to move on. Life doesn't stop just there.

I will learn to stand on my own feet and be strong. I must be strong because there is no one here for me anymore except God and i think that is good enough.

Only He will never give up on me. Even people you trust most will eventually hurt you and just leave you alone when you need them the most.

Despite all the changes in my life, my relationship and work, i will prove to them that i can be strong and adapt to the changes.

There is no motive in my life anymore. I think i will manage to find one but for now, my goal is to do well in my studies so as not to disappoint myself.

I can only take a step at a time now. There is no point in planning for the future because the future always change.

There is no guarantee in anything. Things often change when you least expect it. I guess in this world, when there is no expectations, there will be no hurt.

I'm sick and tired of getting hurt again and again by people that you love and trust most.

Why are human beings so selfish and always thinking for themselves?

Maybe it's just me. I'm always thinking for others without thinking for myself. I need to learn to be selfish.

I need to start thinking for myself and not for others. I know it's be difficult for me to do it because it's just not my nature but i need to try.

I may hurt many in the event but i have no choice. I'm just human. I'm not wonder woman. I don't know how much more hurts and pains my heart can withstand before i totally break down.

I can only say currently i'm lucky to have a bunch of good teammates in class. They help me forget all my pains temporarily but i know i can't depend on them forever.

God will help me. He will save me. Will try to post something on a happier note next time.

Latest updates!

I've finally started on the course that i've long awaited for. Trying to cope with work, studies and RCIA course now.

Not gonna be easy but i believe i can do it. I will have lesser time to blog le. In fact, i'm getting kinda lazy to blog nowadays.

I have what they call writer's block. Although there are many things on my mind but i just don't know what to write or how to put it in words.

Guess i lost my interest in blogging for the time being. Haha.. Lazy me..

Anyway, been seeing lots of surveyors outside nowadays. Getting difficult to avoid them. They are basically saturated everywhere i go.

What's wrong man? Insurance company closing down is it? Got the need to send financial advisors everywhere to canvass anot?

It really irritates the shit out of me when they try to stop me especially when i'm rushing for time. Totally hate it!

I have nothing against insurance agents la. I have friends who are agents and i do buy from them if i can afford.

Maybe it's because i already have my preferred agent le so i really don't wanna stop and talk to some agent who are just wasting their time and mine as well.

Another thing now is that the new ez link card sucks big time. I have yet to exchange my old card but i feel that the thing of not having deposits sounds kinda sucky.

I've seen people not being able to go into the station just because their cards have less than $3. Makes them look so stupid and embarassing.

What happens if the person is taking bus instead of mrt? Where to top up card sia? Are 'they' gonna put a top up machine at every bus stop in Singapore?

Zzzzzzz... I admit i'm not a person with discipline but this is just so freaking lame. I ain't gonna change my card till the deadline is up man. Never!

I hope 'they' realise their mistake and change the cards back to what i'm using now thus causing all those kiasu people to curse and swear. Wahahahaha!!!

How evil i am.. But i know it's not gonna happen la. 'They' will never admit that it was a mistake to change it and start apologising la. 'They' are always right de.

That is the problem when you stay in Singapore. No freedom of speech. Whatever.. I'm too lazy to talk so much and get involved in rubbish political issues.

I'm feeling tired.. My eyes are half closed. Time for bed even though it's Saturday tomorrow. I don't give a damn. I just wanna rest in peace.

So long dear readers.. Adieus...

I know...

I should be updating my blog but i really haven't got the time.

I'm always brain dead when i'm home and the only thing i can think of is gaming which doesn't really require you to use alot of your brain cells.

Either that or i'm always outside catching the latest movie.

Nothing interesting has really been happening in my life anyway. Just work, work and work.

Apart from that, my life has been really great and i'm back to the happy person i am. I no longer feel miserable.

The only thing that upsets me is my work. My work life is a painful and stressful agony. Always on the verge of going crazy everyday.

The only way to destress is to play game and watch movie. I've been eating alot as well but just can't gain any weight. -_-!!

Sometimes i'm really amazed at how we humans are so strong. The way we can take all kind of shit going on in our lives.

Despite all the politics and unhappiness, we are always moving ahead in our lives, always looking forward to a beautiful day though it never usually comes when you want it. Kakaka..

No matter how unhappy or stress i am while working, i continue to go to work everyday even though sometimes i just wanna tear all my hair out. Haha..

Don't be surprise to see me bald someday on the streets. Latest fashion for the girls. Lol..

Ok la. Shall try to update more often. Now it's back to games and then to dreamland. Zzzzzzz... So freaking tired...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Happy Birthday to my dear Mel Mel too!

Lol.. Happy Birthday Valentino! Kakaka..

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Lethargic...

My long leave is over and today is my 3rd day back at work.

My engine is still down. I'm still in holiday mood but there are so many things to do.

Everything is being thrown to me and whether i do it right or not i'll still get F for nothing.

Sighz... Life's like this i guess. Just gotta learn how to face it and adapt to all sort of changes.

Though i've settled whatever issues i have, i'm still feeling pretty insecure.

Afriad that whatever is precious to me will be gone 1 day no matter how much i treasure it.

I keep having this sinking feeling in my stomach because i have lost way too much things enough to make me paranoid.

It's gonna be a tough journey but i believe i can make it. Time will change everything. I'll still get the happiness i'm long awaiting for.

It's not easy but i still hope i can get the blessings of some people. This people can change my life tremendously and i definitely will appreciate it.

Haven't been sleeping enough during chinese new year. Everyone wants to cheat my money. Lol..

Staff annual dinner this coming friday. I hope it's good but i don't think so. Whoever heard of company dinner held in a community club?

Man... This sucks really badly. Whatever it is... It's time for lala land and here i come!!!

Not a very happy chinese new year...

I'm finally on my well deserved long break but so what?

Every one of my relatives is asking where my husband is and when i'm going to give birth when i went for visiting.

I told them i'm not married anymore and everyone thought i was joking.

Nobody knows how hurting it is for me to go through all this. Nobody...

Adding on to that, i was hurt badly once again by someone i loved deeply.

I don't know how long it's gonna take me to heal again. I can't stop my tears from flowing. Never thought this would happen to me again.

I feel so lost...

Happy 21st Birthday to Gracie!!!

She has finally grown up. All the best to you and your future my dear sista!

Extremely stress and tired...

Recently i've been so lethargic that i don't have time to blog at all.

All i think of when i reach home everyday is to sleep. Like total brain dead. Mentally drained.

I'm so stressed up at work that i've been experiencing chest pains and breathing difficulties.

While i'm still settling with 1 pile of work, here comes another pile. It's always like this. I can never finish my work.

Not to mention that i still need to support my BDEs with any urgent enquiries they may have.

My workload is getting heavier and heavier by the day but there's no increase in my pay.

I did try to ask but all i get was that i'm lucky to even have a job now that recession is coming which i think is quite true too.

Not that it helps with all the problems going on at home. I really feel like crying at times but i'm too tired to do it.

Haven't been sleeping well as well. I really need to learn how to relax but the problem is how to when troubles keep coming my way.

Not only that but nobody understands what i'm going through and constantly hurt me with harsh words.

I'm about to break down anytime still i think i may be able to take it.

Right now, i'm going for RCIA courses in short for Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults.

It's a 1 year course and if everything goes well, i'll be baptised next year Easter. How cool is that?

Looking on the bright side, not everything seems so bad when i have God in my life.

Next week i'll be meeting a bunch of my old secondary school friends. It's been like 8 years since i saw them though i'm not that close to most of them.

Still, it would be great to see them again after so many years. I wonder if i'll still be able to recognise most of them.

They are all 1 year younger than me cause i stayed back. Those same age as me don't know all die to where le. Only some still in contact.

Feeling pretty excited but i'll have to go through another week of torture before meeting them.

Let's hope i don't die before that huh?

Happy New Year 2009!!!

Last post for the year 2008.

My new resolution for year 2009 is to live my life to the fullest and my family to be happy together.

Forget the past and live happily for the beautiful future that is awaiting me.

May people who hurt me have an extremely lousy year.

Ultimate Stress...

Lately, alot has been happening at home. It had been a very unhappy Christmas.

I have lots of mixed feelings within me. Sad, disappointed, shocked, betrayal, cheated, denial.

All i wanted was someone close to me who can understand me and go thru all this trials of tough times with me but apparently, there is none.

I wanna end all this unhappiness once and for all but it's not within my means to do so.

Sometimes i wonder why i have to go thru all this unneccessary mental stress. It's very unhealthy for me.

I only have 1 answer to that. I have to learn to be strong so as to overcome everything. Instead of mentally breaking down, i become stronger.

I believe that my happiness is out there waiting for me. I have to fight to get out from the maze of unhappiness and my happiness will be there waiting for me.

The day will come. I just have to endure for now. God will give me my well deserved happiness.

Merry Christmas!!!

Let's Sing together everybody~~~~
Latest Christmas carol for 2008..

You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town.
It's hitting you once,
It's hitting you twice
It doesn't care if you've been careful and wise Recession is coming to town
It's worthless if you've got shares
It's worthless if you've got bonds
It's safe when you've got cash in hand
So keep cash for goodness sake, HEY
You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town!
Finance products are confusing
Finance products are so vague
The banks make you bear the cost of risk So keep out for goodness sake, OH
You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town !

Holiday Mood..

Christmas is just round the corner. I'm already in the holiday mood but i'm not really that excited abt Christmas celebration.

Many things has been going on around me and trapping me in a small space till i can't breath at all.

I feel so miserable at times but nobody knows. I'm only good at doing my job well and keeping things to myself.

I know that certain memories can only be kept in my heart. Those memories are in the past and will never come back again.

All that is left are just lies. Blatant lies and fake promises. Beautiful things just don't last long enough for you to enjoy.

In a snap of the finger and it's gone. *Poof!* Just like this and we are thrown back into reality which is harsh and realistic.

It's a cruel world out there. I can only find peace in God's presence. Only HE can give me the strength to carry on.

I'm so afraid of losing my mind or i might have really lost it that i actually bought a hamster for my brother when he requested it.

It's not that bad i guess. I just hope he can learn to be more responsible. I will also take ownership of the hamster.

She's really cute and adorable. It was love at first sight. I couldn't resist the urge to bring her home. I'm so in love... =)

Having her keeps my mind sane. At least i know i'm not going crazy or anywhere near breaking down.

2 old school friends has been looking for me and asking me out. I'm pretty much happy to see them again. Haven't seen them for the last 8 years or so eversince i quit school.

Miss those days when we were still notorious naughty students taunting each and every teacher that comes into our classroom.

I guess most of us has changed except me but we still have fun while we were out with each other. I realised how much i miss them.

They will be organizing a gathering for other ex classmates as well. Can't wait to see them all grown up. Lol..

Will probably meet this 2 friends this weekend again to go out and have some fun.

Will try to update again soon. Thanks to those dear friends who care. Love you guys.

Horrible experience

Last night on my way home, i encounter a horrible experience. A malay guy walk up towards me and ask me where i'm going.

He was smiling pervertly to me. I ignored him and just continue walking feeling abit scared and thinking if i should look for help.

I never expected that he would actually walk 1 big round just to catch me at the entrance of the lift grinning pervertly at me again.

I really got a nasty shock to see him there but i was really lucky as there's a auntie there already waiting for a lift.

That stupid pervert malay guy walk away in disappointment. I quickly went into the lift with the auntie and told her what happened.

She said i was really lucky that she too just got back and she also said that she have never seen this guy around before.

I thank God and the auntie for saving me in time. If it was just me and the guy, who would have known what would happen.

It really freaked me out totally bringing back alot of bad memories of the past when i was young.

I was shivering when i reach home. I went into my room and cry myself to sleep.

I hope this thing will not happen again.

Confused...

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Don't feel like blogging at all.

Might be ignoring this blog for an even longer period of time till i get my things settled.

Alot is going through my mind and i'm having a hell lot of mixed emotions right now. I feel sad, angry, dejected and confused.

I'm at the point of breaking out into tears soon. I'm really just a simple girl who just wants to be happy. Why do i have to suffer all this mental torture?

I've been thinking of doing something but i'm still holding back. I don't know what is wrong with me.

I only know that things are gonna turn very ugly but that's the only way i can bring peace to myself.

I'm not superwoman. I'm human and i have feelings. People just keep doing things to hurt me. I keep seeing things that i don't wanna see.

I don't wanna fall back into darkness again but here i am struggling for my life and my own happiness all by myself.

There's no one to help me. All alone by myself. I know i need to be strong and i've struggled through all kinds of shit.

Still, there will be times where i will go weak and start thinking all sorts of nonsense. Suffering mental stress which is not at all healthy for me.

I need to take action for my own future and my own happiness.

But nobody understands me. Where is all the support and encouragement i need?

I really don't wanna suffer anymore. I'm so tired of putting up a strong front when i'm feeling weak.

Who is there to help me? Who can help me?

No time...

Bah! I thought i would have more time to relax after the Loo Campaign organised by the World Restroom Association but i seem to get more and more busy.

So many month end reports to do, load photos, attend course and 1 particular new sales person is irritating the shit out of me not to mention the usual rubbish coming from Branch Support.

I swear i will not Ms Nice Lady anymore if she pisses me off 1 more time. Don't understand how an adult woman like her can act like that with that kind of behaviour.

Don't wanna talk about her right now. Let me have a nice weekend for once. I'm already having enough stress.

My handphone is a total goner. Even Sony Ericsson can't save my phone. What luck! So it's time for me to burn a hole in my pocket again.

The only good thing is that my pimples are getting slightly better though it's still pretty red and i think the scars are gonna stay awhile.

I also bought a new camera and i love it so much!!! It's the Canon PowerShot E1 and it's in baby pink colour. Gracie is soooooo jealous. Lol..

If you wanna view the photos i've taken during the campaign then go here.

I have also posted photos of our sales BBQ organised by KAM(Key Account Manager) Team.

Now it's time for me to go relax and watch some shows. Will try to blog more often.

I'm busted!

It had been a really lousy week for me. I certainly hope this week will get better.

1st, i had the school calling me to tell me that there wasn't enough student for the course i'm taking and therefore there will be no class.

I was really upset. I almost cried. I have been looking forward to the classes and as the date comes nearer, they say no class.

I felt really lost. The next intake is next year March. I don't know if i can wait that long. Maybe i'll look out for other schools.

Remember that 2 years ago i was knocked down by a vehicle in Indonesia? Recently, i fell down the stairs, knock my head and was admitted to the hospital.

I've heard that people die a few months later after they knocked their head. I wonder if i'm 1 of them. I hope not. Sounds abit scary.

I seem to be very prone to accidents huh? If my dad was a millionaire, i would employ bodyguards to follow me everywhere i go.

Just a dream... I'll probably marry a billionaire. Lol... Better start taking care of my face now.

Lots of outbreaks on my face recently. My colleagues say it might be due to hormone change and everyone is giving me different advices and asking to buy different facial wash. I hear until blur.

The worst thing that happened to me apart from falling down the stairs was that i actually forgot to take my handphone out from my jeans before putting it to wash.

By the time i realise, my handphone is already going round and round in the washing machine. Totally panicked as i can't open the washing machine until it has stopped washing.

When i got my handphone out, it was soaked with water and look totally sparkling clean. Really wanna burst out in tears le.

Now i just hope that after it dries up, i can still use the phone. Don't wanna spend unneccessary money in getting a new phone.

The campaign is coming nearer which is this wednesday. Hope to get over it soon then i can finally relax for awhile.

Will update again after the event is over. That's all for now.

Busy...

Arghhhhh....

No time to blog. There's an upcoming event organised by the Restroom organization and our company is 1 of the sponsors.

It's called the Loo Campaign and it will be held at the Singapore Zoo. We also have a booth there to promote our products.

The whole team will be there to educate the public on our hygiene services. Eversince i started working here, i've been paying alot of attention to my personal hygiene.

Now i know how important it to wash our hands properly and sanitizations. There are so many germs around us and we never really pay any attention to it.

I hope i don't become those people who are so extreme about cleanliness. Lol.. Not that they are bad la but too extreme also not very good ba.

We humans have to live with abit of dirt else our immune system won't work properly.

Ok. Enough of that. My main purpose is to say that i'll probably have more time to blog after the event.

Been working around the clock non-stop. Too many things to settle and too little time to do it. I've been assigned a hell lot of task.

Hope the event will run smoothly. Gotta run. Lots of work awaits me.

Stress...

Today we had the 1st meeting with the new manager, Jaya on board. The meeting lasted for nearly half a day with lots of new issues.

My sales people had their share of complains on how much suffering we had with the unsupportive help of branch support.

At the same time, he also implemented alot of things on me which Jimmy never did in the past because he knows it's gonna be tough on me.

Jaya being totally new to our industry of cause had no idea. Apparently, it was the directive from our dear GM.

I'm gonna be overloaded soon but still, i had to get on with it. I'll try it for a month or so to see how well i can deal with it.

I wanna see how far i can stretch my limits. He say will employ an assistant for me but whether the headcount will be approved is still another thing.

I see darkness ahead of me. Gonna be totally engulfed by it soon. My life sucks but at least i'm proven to be capable of handling things well. =)

He initially suggested me to join the sales as a BDE (Business Development Executive) which is what all my sales are doing.

Reason being that i'm still so new in the company, never went through public training course before and yet i did so well in the training i gave them.

I don't know to believe or not. Sounds like an excuse to push me go do sales. I rejected him. I said i'm not ready yet.

The company is in a mess now, new sales scheme sucks and i know what kind of suffering my BDEs went through.

I'll wait till when things are better before considering joining. Can't be a sales coordinator for the rest of my life right?

It's not such a bad idea la since i'm gonna take diploma in Sales & Marketing after my cert. It would help to have some field experience.

The plan for my life in the next 10 years would be to go into the managerial post when i reach 35. I believe i can do it.

My life isn't that bad actually huh? Because i have God in my life. Gonna go sleep le cause my eyes are half-closed. Zzzzzz......

Happy Halloween!

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Went out on Deepavali with my sis and khai. We went to watch movie, The Coffin. What can i say? Most lame thai horror show i've ever watched.

Been really busy with work. Was to give admin training on wednesday on our system and necessary paperwork to new staff so was busy preparing the materials.

So far working here, 3 colleagues has already left us so here comes new staff and thanks to Jimmy, i had to give the training.

3 ladies and Jaya, the man who is taking over Jimmy's position aka my future manager. I think i really sucks at teaching.

1 to 1 training i'm still ok la but teaching so many people at the same time in conference room is seriously not my forte.

I get stucked with words at times. I've only seen Jimmy do such trainings but never expect that he will throw me go die like this.

Wahahahaha! Actually not a bad experience la. Since i know my stuff well and Jimmy has enough trust in me to do a good job i should be proud ba.

I should share my knowledge with my new colleagues and if i teach them well, they won't come disturb me in the future le. Kekeke...

After training, Jimmy told me that our GM wanted to join in de but i was already half way through the training le.

Am i lucky or what? If she were to join, i think i'll perspire like mad, stress out and break down on the spot. Lol...

Eventually, i did fall sick yesterday. Had slight fever and my throat was feeling really dry. Felt dizzy and kept running to the toilet. Get nauseous when i smell food.

Doctor say that i overstretch my stomach that's why stomach don't feel well. I was thinking to myself that i already don't eat much lor.

Just happen that i was feeling extremely hungry after the training and all i had was a fish burger la. Got people more suay than me anot?

Anyway, today is Halloween's Day. Wooooooooooooo... Pontianak coming to catch you tonight. Wishing everyone a Happy Halloween!

To join in the fun and create the atmosphere, here's a picture for all to enjoy!

Warning: Not for the weak-hearted.



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Boo!

Scary anot? =p